Since last week the stupid temperature's been yoyoing between 33 and 37 degrees here. I know I live in the tropics but damn, it's making me sick!

Clothing has become my greatest enemy and ice has become my favourite food. I don't even want
to leave my house with the comfort of my fans for the stupid heated outdoors.

It's still, it's hot and it's very dry. Today it rained and cooled the place down to 33.5 which felt really good after the temperature yesterday being around 35 degrees and very, very, dry. This must be what it feel like to live in a desert.

The best thing about it, is that I have an excuse to take 3 or 4 showers everyday. I know that's not environmentally friendly, but hey...I do less harm than a lot of people.

I miss the beautiful heavy rainfall, the type of rain that falls hard for hours and makes my whole country slow down for a while. I miss the kind of rain that makes some people feel cold. I dispise this pitiful excuse for rainfall that lasts for five minutes and dries off the ground in five minutes once the sun comes back out.

I suppose it's probably better without the heavy rain, I mean...this country floods in no time at all.

Found this webpage on the effects a 2 or 3 degree rise will have on the world. They forgot to say that weaklings such as myself who once passed out on her school field becuase of the heat will drop dead! Well...at least that's how I've been feeling for the past few weeks anyway.

Live Earth: What a Difference One Degree Makes : http://liveearth.uk.msn.com/green/articles/one_degree.aspx?imageindex=1

I'd love to take a vacation to...Iceland. The sound of the name alone is music to my hot ears...ICEland. I won't do that though...don't have any family there, I'd be all alone. Cooler...but all alone in a country I know nothing about.

I suppose I will just stay here and cook in my own sweat.

At the beginning of my exams I was so stressed out. I just wanted them to finish. Now that I only have another week to go Ive realised that I have no idea what to do with my life after.

I was planning on leaving my school and going to a provate school and studying just math and physics and learning some programming languages, but now I'm not so sure if that's really what I want to do. So Now I'm spending two more years...at my messed up school and studying human biology, chemistry, physics and math, and learning programming somewhere else.

I'd like to become either a computer engineer, programmer, or some kind of doctor. I'm not sure which.

I wish God would just speak to me and tell me what to do.

Exams are painfull. They're damaging me. They're destroying my mind and all the things that once made me a happy carefree simple person. Now My life is filled with anxiety, nervousness and oversensitivity. I'm just not me.
I want them to end. I want them to go away. I wish I had defied the teachers since they lead me the wrong way. They lead me to do subjects that only had me going to after school classes because there were not teachers in school. They made me become a teacher because some of the teachers I do have don't even show up to class.
I hate being my own teacher. But I'm a lot better than they are because I at least know what I'm doing.

In my country you can hear Christmas carols playing as early as November. You hear them on televison advertisements. Down town suddenly starts getting busier and busier with each passing week until December when it's hard to walk down the sidewalks.
People generally "Break up house" I think that's what they call it. I never took part in it so I never did care what it's called. It's when they polish their houses from top to bottom. I have to do this every week since lots of things make me ill, so I don't do any kind of "Christmas Cleaning" When the house is cleaned it gets new curtains and carpets and decirations and appliances.

Now this is the part that really gets me angry. People who cannot afford it go and buy things for their houses on hire purchase and use it over Christmas because a certain store has this offer every year where you pay nothing down until the next year. So they but appliances they cannot pay for. They will buy from other places too of course. Then they buy so much food and a whole lot of presents for people they don't even like and go out shopping for things for the house like artificial flowers and ornaments and they finish their money on such unnecessary things when they know that the next paycheck is not until the end of January for those who are paid monthly. Children get hungry, parents get angry and business is bad during January because these people are broke.

Nothing sickens me at Christmas like the way people waste. Families cook so much food. A small family will probably cook enough to feed a street. They don't finish their food and end up throughing it all away. Why is it in a world with so much poor people, that the rich and middle classed have to be throughing food away. Why is it that some parents allow their little children to stuff theselves to death while some parents have to watch their babies starve? I think it's evil.

We do have some wonderful traditions here though. We have masquerade bands on the roads dancing and playing flutes in bright colourful costumes. Families cook some of the best food in the world. Many people spend Christmas in church, which is usually a good place. We have stretched out magazine where the media mocks the politicians, and everything they've done for the year. Families start to talk to each other at least for a bit, and I don't know about anyone else really but I appreciate any moment I can spend with my family.

Today I did what I always do on Christmas, cook, eat, deliver presents to the kids next door. Tomorrow I get to go see my beloved uncle and his family. And in just over a minute I hope to be asleep.

Merry Christmas & A Happy New Year to you.
Thank you for reading my post.

I'm having a really happy weekend. It's really happy because I'm spending it with people. I've been calling my family, and talking to friends. Today a friend of mine and I went out to the Botanical Gardens for a walk and we met some people there, just by chance actually. They were there playing some sports then they came over to the table where my friend and I were sitting and started playing dominoes.
We watched couples together at the gardens and we wtched people going to take pictures at their weddings. We saw small weddings and big ones, seven weddings in all and eleven couples. Then I went to church and learned to play Shout to The Lord on the steel pan.

The happiest times in my life are when I'm with the people I love and care about. All my troubles just seem to fly away when I'm with nice people. I even got friendlier over the weekend. It's amazing what a little rest and relaxation will do.